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Posted on: Saturday, August 14, 2010Saturday, August 14, 2010xxx
Does love depends on age ? ? ? ?
"Tidak ku sangka kau tergamak pergi saat ku masih perlukanmu"
Sounds familiar right ?Yup it was a lyrics from one of New Boyz song titled Meraung.No,im not jiwang-ing nor do i just broke up with someone.NO.I was just expressing myself through lyrics because at home,i got noone to turn to.Okay tat is one of the disadvantages of being the only child.Tsk!Anw,I feel much more better now :) To my bestfriends,cliques and cousin,thnks for being there for me going through everything together.Now i know that there're ppl who actually love,care and appreciate me.You make me feel that im not a loner but the best part was that you treated me like your own brother/sister and for that, i was really touched.I cried when i looked back to all those looooooooooong birthday wishes(mcm compo),cards and friendship messages.You know i love each and everyoneof you to bits,i swear.I hope that our friendship will last till the very end.I'll make sure of that :) Wa,mcm emo gitu eh ?HAHA.Anw,since i was expressing myself here,i would like to spill out something which i've been keeping with me for very long time(heart cannot take it already.Flooding inside.).My main reason of expressing everything here because i want to feel better in the sense that i want to feel that i've never come across those shits....Ok ready ?Breath in breath out......Ok go.
Recently,I mean about a mth ago,someone broke my heart.I did say that it was not his fault.Yes,it was not his fault because maybe it's true that it's impossible between both of us.Mainly because of our age.Wait,does love depends on age ?Anw,since im the older one,i should understand :) To tell the truth,i wasn't really expecting something from you because i know things gonna turn out like this and i've been praying and hoping that THAT won't happen because i am already happy with our current situation/relationship at that time.But now,everything ended just like that.
To admit,i was really sad and disappointed when i received your text.I guess,you think that i've already forget you and move on right ? Hell no.It's not easy i tell you because it's hard to forget a person who gave you so much to remember.Im telling the truth and its up to you to believe it or not.I'm sorry if you feel disgusted or you think i'm making you feeling guilty or something.Like i've mentioned ,im just expressing because i want to feel less burden and hope that after this,i won't be thinking about it anymore because it hurts,A LOT.Imagine you've been contacting this person for quite a long time and that person care for you,been there to lend you his/her listening ears, cheering you up when you're down.Simply said,him/her is there with you all the time regardless of distance and out of blue,things just ended LIKE THAT.How sad can it be.
Okay,i don't blame you actually because to think back, maybe we got different thinking mindset.Right now,my main focus in on my prelims and upcoming N's which is in 2 more months.I should be studying rather than stressing myself on"LOVE".Okay,im glad that w're still friends eventhough we seldom talk,smile or joke aorund with each other like what we used to(Oh i miss that so much ! ) And im not shy to admit that that guy is a four-teen year old guy who succesfully made me fall in love again.After this,i don't care what you ppl wanna say,go ahead.Yea,there are some who actully questioned me this,"eh,kau suker budak lelaki muder dari kau ?eh,com'on maii,kt dunia nie ramai jantan.You deserve someone better lah" .Hey look,you won't know that you will like/love that person.It's your heart says everything.It's a automatic sudden feeling yknow and i think that love doesn't depends of age because .......... i think so.Lol.Eh my mother is much more older than my dad and alhamdullilah they live happily ever after so what's there to explain ?Girls,don't concern too much about age.Jodoh di tangan tuhan.On the other hand,my bestfriends,cousin and family been there supporting me esp my dad.I love you ayah ! :) Okay,im done expressing and im done with everything so right now,all i want to think about is my studies,studies,studies.I don't care if im gonna turn out to be a nerd because i just want to score well for my prelims and N's,insyallah :)
Alright,its already 1.38am and i better turn in now so that i can wake up for sahur ltr.No i don't want wait till sahur than after that go sleep because...........eh,my pasal lah ! :P Gdnite :D
assalamualaikum..
